Tuesday, April 13, 2021

The Sun Is Out and I Am Blue - A Snippet

I can list all all the causes for my angst -

  •     The lady who sneezed - maskless - over the vegetables at Albertsons yesterday afternoon.
  •     Taxes are due.
  •     We're traveling to Big Cuter's wedding next week - airplanes, hotels, restaurants......
  •     My irrigation is refusing to water two of my vulnerable roses.
  •     There's an HOA meeting next door at Fast Eddie's house and I wanna stay home and Zoom.
  •     The pool filter conked out after absorbing more than its weight in detritus; we haven't swum in 3 days.
  •     The trilogy about Henry the VIII I'm reading is pointing out the lapses in my knowledge of        history.    
Those are the facts.  The results are a stomach jumping around, a head that refuses to settle on one thought for more than 5 seconds, and hands that are shaking when they aren't otherwise occupied.

My blood pressure was super high at the dentist's office this morning.  

I need to begin my meditation practice.  I need to exercise every morning.  I need to eat 3 meals, regularly scheduled throughout the day.  I know all this.  I know, also, that nothing on that list is all that terrible.

And yet, here I am.  Head in my hands.  Typing though I want to weep.

I'm having a Post Covid Melt-Down.  I think I'll wallow in the sorrow for a while and come out refreshed at the end.  

At least, that's the plan.

     

8 comments:

  1. Now, my dear, this is all a matter of perspective. Lapse in knowledge= opportunity to learn something new and keep brain sharp; wedding= yay family wedding!; taxes=bet you pay more than that scofflaw Trump. See? I can send you my list because it is SO much easier to do this on someone else's list. hang in there!

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    1. "Now, my dear" has been in my head and behind the smile on my face all day! Send your list my way.... I'll be glad to help you in return!
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  2. Oooh, a wedding. That sounds wonderful, but I understand your trepidation. It will be a big leap.
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    1. Dr. Fauci tells me I am safe. I am choosing to believe him!
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  3. Good luck with that plan. I'm going to get up and move, hard as that might be. And I'm going to really hope that my sister's funeral tomorrow isn't a super spreader. Some people in the family don't take Covid seriously enough.

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    1. Stay masked and as far away as as you can and refuse hugs.... a hard order but necessary. My heart will be with you, understanding the fears and the sorrow. My cousin's funeral was in San Antonio yesterday....
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  4. I didn't realize Big Cuter was getting married - oh happy day for him. Will it be to the young woman with the pig with the painted toe nails? I loved those posts of the pig. Here's wishing you calmer days ahead.

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    1. YES! It's a small event put together bc how long can you wait for the world to return to normal? There will be photos! (Queen T, the new member of our tribe, says "if there are no photos it didn't happen.")
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