I Followed Your Advice

I was tired last night, readjusting to the altitude. 

I remembered the comments telling me to take care of myself,  so I took today off to watch the Olympic athletes sail down the Seine and to regroup. 

Happy last weekend in July. 

It's nice to be able to breathe again, isn't it?

Joe

I remember when I noticed that Daddooooo was an old man.  It was sudden.  It was startling.  It was very sad. 

I had that same feeling tonight watching our President on television. COVID takes it out of you,  as I know from personal experience.  He looked like he was still feeling the effects. 

The worst part was missing the sparkle in his eyes.  He's always seemed to relish the moment.  Whatever the circumstances, he looked like he was enjoying himself. 

Not so much tonight.  

He was dim. He was quiet. He was reading from the teleprompter,  not looking at me through the camera. 

His talk was short.  He took on the Lying Liar with some of his old verve,  but it was Joe Light, heavy on the pauses, not so much on the punch lines. 

For the first time since the debate,  I agreed with those who encouraged him to step down.  I spent my tv time watching Kamala's recent greatest hits; she's come a long way as a candidate on the last four years. 

It's a new era in American politics,  if we can get past the Lying Liar.  I have nothing but admiration and respect for a man who's following in the footsteps of the great men who preceded him,  who he mentioned in his speech.  Washington, Lincoln, Roosevelt..... I want to add Biden to that list. 

Hiking in Marin

Miss Nancy and I were hiking 20-25 miles a week together before I ditched her to move to Tucson.  

Luckily, she doesn't hold a grudge. 

Today she and I braved the heat and took what was supposed to be a 3.1 mile hike in Novato.  It was hot driving up there, hot when we started out, and hot every time we took a water break. 

It was mostly shady,  but that didn't make a difference.  I would have taken pictures,  but the effort of turning the fanny pack around to get to the phone was more than I could bear. 

I was thinking that the activity was more torture than delight when Miss Nancy stopped ahead of me and announced that she was very hot. I said that I wouldn't mind if we turned around and the next thing I knew she changed directions and passed me going downhill. 

You know you're good hiking buddies when the discomfort is shared.  

We zoomed downhill and drove to eat tacos with the air conditioning on full blast and the windows open for more breeze. 

Neither of us could remember another hike that was this uncomfortable.  

We'd hiked for years,  every Saturday and Sunday and most Thursdays, too, before I left 18 years ago. We hiked in the rain (so much fun, once we upgraded our rain gear) and when there was frost on the ground.  We took windy hikes and lengthy hikes.  But in all that time,  we never turned around because of the heat.

Climate change, anyone?

Could It Be?

I spent today with a big smile on my face. 

A black woman will choose a vice presidential nominee.  Her choices include another woman, Gretchen Whitman, a gay man, Secretary Pete, a Jew, Josh Shapiro, and a person I know and who knows me, Mark Kelly. 

I never imagined this.  It gives me hope for America. I'm sleeping better now. 

Marin Farmers Market

While Little Cuter was growing up, she and I had a standing date on Sunday mornings.  Before breakfast, we'd drive through the underpass in the middle of Frank Lloyd Wright's Main Civic Center,  find a parking space, and enter our happy place. 

The fresh lemonade lady was always glad to see us.  The little man selling very sweet oranges, navel, offering one for you, two for me made us giggle. We ate Aidells chicken apple sausages with fresh salsa. We bought lettuce mix from a plastic baby pool filled with what G'ma referred to as garden clippings.  

Those are some of my finest memories of our time in Marin. 

Today,  I started making some more. 

We ended up with bagel sandwiches.  The lemonade lady was gone, and I couldn't find the orange salesman.  It didn't matter. 

HunnyBunny did lots of people watching.  Queen T and I bought veggies and fruits, admired the flowers,  and did a fair amount of people watching ourselves. Big Cuter pushed the stroller and waited in the lines for coffee and lunch.  

What goes around comes around, and I'm very glad to be on the ride. 

More Books

I read After Annie today.  A review I read once said that you don't just read about Anna Quindlan's characters, you inhabit them.  Or maybe it was that they inhabit you.  It doesn't matter; they're both true.

I could smell their dinners and hear their sobs.  I was as bewildered, as lost, as uncertain as they were.  After all, Annie dies on the first page.  Where is this book possibly going to go that won't rip my heart out and leave it on the sidewalk to fry? 

The reason Anna Quindlan won a Pulitzer is that she is able to find that space between the unbearable and the alarm clock.  Her gift is presenting the life that must go on, the quotidian details like laundry and hamster food, side by side with the inescapable reality.  

She's covered every possible relationship.  Immediate family, in-laws' families, replacement people for estranged families all bump up against one another as life goes on.  Nothing very unusual happens yet everyone is different at the end, but only around the edges.  

I feel like I've known them my entire life.

I've really been on a roll; the library has been fulfilling all my wishes.  Yesterday, I read S. A. Cosby's All the Sinners Bleed.  It's a police procedural and a family drama and a meditation on race and power.  It's beautifully written.  

I think I've read it before.  Pieces of the story felt familiar, but only like an old friend reminding me of a story and telling it again, filling in the parts that are really important.  I remembered who dunnit, but that was much less important than what was happening around the edges of the investigation.

Cosby gives you enough room to make up your own mind about his characters.  There are surprises and there are sorrows in a place that feels familiar and extremely strange at the same time.  It feels that way to the residents, too, which makes it just that much more relatable and believable.  

Which is weird to say because there is nothing about their lives which looks anything like mine.

An older and wiser James Lee Burke's latest collection of stories, Harbor Lights, has left me breathless.  The stories still have the wit of the young Dave Robicheaux, who was an old man even then, but it's tinged with wisdom and the knowledge that there's more behind him than in front of him.  

It was hard to read more than one at a time.  There was a lot to digest, much of it melancholy.  I tried to remember to read it when the sun was shining.

That's not to say that it should be avoided.  On the contrary, every bit of it was wonderful.  The landscape is still as much of a character as the humans.  He reveals truths and then lets them sit with the characters, so they can sit with you.  It is not to be taken lightly.

Crocheting

I learned from my mother.  Her mother sewed, Daddooooo's mother crocheted.  I don't think there's a story behind that, but I wanted to share the data anyway.

Knitting was G'ma's go-to craft, and we had the handmade ski sweaters to prove it.  Unfortunately, she used scratchy wools that no one who's been alive since acrylics hit the scene would ever put. on their bodies again.  I gave them all away, heartbreaking though it was.  I like to think of a cold un-housed human being comforted by her stitches.

I have a closet full of yarns that I really did think would become a project when I bought them.  Somehow, shopping was more fun than creating and now the skeins sit, taking up closet space, waiting to be put to use.

Taos Bubbe texted me today, wondering if I would teach her granddaughter to crochet.  We have a date on Friday.  Green is her color, and I certainly have enough of it to get her started.  

I've always had a problem finding the last stitch on the row.  My scarves end up with diagonal edges.  I've become the master at putting edging round the errors, like putting lipstick on a pig.  If I'm the only one who knows it's there, what's the harm?  That's the lesson I'm going to share.

Crocheting is better than biting your nails.  It's better than sitting in front of a screen, hands idle, brain absorbing but not participating.  It gives you small gifts for friends and big gifts for special occasions.  It calms the soul.  

As I type this I am reminded that I have a wedding present afghan that's almost but not quite finished.  The wedding was two years ago.  

 My last crocheting craze started when Little Cuter was first pregnant.  Baby hats, round blankets, stroller sized wraps, swaddles, tiny mittens - they were produced at an alarming rate.  The fascination lasted through her second pregnancy, went on hiatus for a few years, then sprung into action once HoneyBunny was preparing to arrive. 

There's a giant pink blanket waiting to be completed.  Her little brother will be delivered in January, and thus far nothing has been created to welcome him.  I think Taos Bubbe's request is just what I need to get going.

Her granddaughter will learn on green.  I'll get started on a blue baby blanket for my next grandson.  Gender specific colors can be useful when the baby is teeny tiny and not obviously male or female.  As Big Cuter told people looking at his bald baby sister in the stroller - It's wearing PINK!! It's a GIRL!!!

And then we went home and scotch taped a bow to her head.

My New Chair

Weighted inflatable ball with hand pump and foot rest.
American flag quilt by Not-Kathy.

It seemed simpler than it's turned out to be.

Balancing while typing requires two sets of brain functions, both of which are used to being the only one in charge in any given moment.  It's a challenge to stay balanced and think deep thoughts.

Initially, it was too soft.  I was too low to the keyboard and didn't feel enough support from below.  My feeble attempts at inflating it did nothing to improve the situation.  TBG didn't think he accomplished anything after he tried, but he was wrong.

At this moment,  I am precariously balanced atop a rather unforgiving and ever changing surface.  Weighted to exist in a state of almost-stationary-but-not-quite, staying in one place requires constant motion by the sitter.  

Yes, it's counterintuitive.  But it's true.  One deep breath and the whole thing reacts.... usually just as one of those deep thoughts is emerging.  Hanging onto both at the same time is giving my brain new challenges, and that's a good thing.  Losing my train of thought, not so much.

Then there's question of stature.  My feet don't reach the floor if I sit at the very top.  I have a foot rest, but my feet don't reach it if my knees are at a ninety degree angle.  I can lean forward and sway side to side.  I can put the foot rest under one foot. while the other is on its toes.  Finding a stack of something to put under the other foot is a new priority.  

No matter what position I choose for my feet, my back and gluteal musculature must be engaged so I don't fall forward or back.  This makes typing to you a form of exercise, one which will speak to me later this evening.   

While it is very difficult to stay focused when the chair is an active participant in the activity, when I know what I'm going to write it's fun to bounce up and down.

This is an enjoyable conundrum.

It Was Quite a Storm

The chyron below the Copa America last night gave a running commentary on the storm we were watching from our windows.  A tornado warning right in our neighborhood.  Flash flood warnings for all the creeks and washes surrounding our house.  The winds were rearranging our outdoor furniture with reckless abandon.  The power flickered and I collected the flashlights and TBG worried but our domicile was good shelter and the only damage we had to clean up was the layer of leaves on the patio.

In the morning, I drove to Pilates and surveyed the damage.  Some streets were untouched.  My route was ravaged.

This sad saguaro

was on the ground across of this tilted giant.

The root balls don't send enough deep tendrils to hold the tall trees in place.  This makes sense since our limited water supply rarely seeps down into the soil, but it's not much help when the winds start whirling.

Limbs the size of my thigh broke off and tilted the trees along with them.

Not all of them left the trunk completely,

although many did, leaving raw wounds behind.

There was property damage to roofs and by roofs.

Our house emerged unscathed.  The small professional mall at our corner was not so lucky.

That's evidence of real power, I think,  I can feel the wall saying NO NO NO.

Our next door neighbors lost two olive trees and a desert willow.

The lovely path between our houses was literally uprooted.

Some of their ornamental cacti suffered as well.

The UV was a victim as well.  This is what I found wedged underneath when I parked at Pilates after driving past the devastation.

It was really quite a storm.

 

Untitled

I tried several titles on for size.  None of them fit recent events... or else they were not fit to print.  

There's a lot I might say aloud, but I'm reluctant to write most of it down.  I'm following Daddooooo's advice:  Don't do anything you don't want published on the front page of the New York Times. 

I've spent this afternoon curating my remarks.  These are the few that passed muster.

Where are the pundits calling out the crisis actors who created this scene?  Those pundits were noisy about the bullets flying around me, and that was certainly a blatant (if insane) political act.

I smile when I read gun safety advocates' posts holding the victims in their hearts and sending prayers.  I really hope that is all those poor souls need right now.  

And finally, rail all you want at immigrants and people of color, but it was a young white American man with a legally purchased firearm who tried to take your head off, Donald.  

I'm just sayin'

90% Off

I strolled through the aisles at WallyWorld late this afternoon.  I found some of what I was looking for and, of course, lots of things that I wasn't looking for but which were tempting, if only for a glance or two.  

But then there were these:

sitting right below SEASONAL MERCHANDISE SALE sign which said 90% OFF!  NO EXCEPTIONS!

Math is not my long suit, but I can calculate 10% of anything and then multiply it by, in this case, 9.  Suddenly, the I'll-never-spend-$5.98-on-these pinwheels became put-three-of-those-58.9cent-babies-in-the-cart brilliant purchases.

Smiling about the garden scholars' reaction to these huge decorations, I rang them up first.  

They registered at $1.49.

Not trusting my math, I googled 90% off $5.98.  Then I pressed Call for help and showed my screen to the helper.  She said I paid $1.49 for them yesterday.  That's the price.  I begged to differ, showed her the screen again, and watched as she over-rode the system 

and made plans to take her receipt in for a refund.

I'm going to let WallyWorld know about this.  I wonder if there's a government agency I should contact, too.  It would sure be nice to have a problem I can get my hands around.  Just typing this has calmed my near-panic-stricken-from-politics nerves.

I'm on the case.

They Won't Quit

The Lying Liar hasn't been seen in 11 days.  Where's the media on that?

The Republican Party is set to nominate a convicted felon as its standard bearer.  Where's the media on that?

Why, they are covering the spectacle that is the Democratic Party once again stepping on a chance to save democracy and preserve The American Way..... ensuring instead of limiting rights, caring instead of denying, participating in a free and fair way.

There's a damn fine message waiting to be delivered.  There are people who will listen.  They are not my young friend from yesterday, not the MAGA diehards, nor those convinced that Joe is too old and Kamala is weak.  They are the women who will go to the polls in Arizona to enshrine the right to reproductive care in our Constitution.  They are the voters who will not vote for a felon.  They might be the voters driving across a new bridge paid for by the Democrats and Joe Biden's infrastructure bill.

And, of course, there are those of us who would vote for my great aunt Sadie rather than see that crook retake the crown.  

Because a crown it would be.  

Where's the media on that?

I Failed

I had all the talking points.  I had the statistics on my phone.  We sat, just the two of us, at a quiet table, painting ceramic flowers.

We spent two hours talking about what's at stake in the upcoming election.  

He couldn't get past the fact that Joe Biden is old, and garbles his words, and he has the videos to back it up.  He just can't vote for someone's who has dementia, whose brain doesn't work.  He can't have someone who cannot think clearly leading the nation.

He thinks the indictments will all go away because they are flawed.  Does he think it's okay to remove Top Secret/Eyes Only documents and store them in your bathroom?  Haven't you ever broken the rules?

The seriousness of exposing our allies' wartime capabilities was beyond him.  Joe Biden is old.

Serial, unrepentant sexual abuser..... convicted of business fraud in service of trying to steal an election..... find me 11,000 some odd votes......  he had nothing to say to any of that, but he still couldn't see himself voting for Biden.

He wishes there were another alternative.  Yeah, well, this is what's on the menu.  

Would you hire a failed business man to run your business?  More than I would someone who cannot think straight.

Reproductive rights touched him, as did access to contraception.  The border and concomitant crime (that poor dead girl in Texas.... I wonder if she's happy being a martyr to the right) was his top concern.  When I describe Trump's scuttling of the bi-partisan border bill so that Biden wouldn't get a win, he chalked it up to a smart political move.

Serial, unrepentant sex offender was what got the most traction, and I used it unabashedly, with a wicked grin and a c'mon, kiddo, you know better than that shake of my head.... because I know he does.  He knows I'm biased toward the left, while his mom leans more to the right, but even she can't vote for the Lying Liar because he doesn't respect women, and that's it for me.  

I talked about the down ballot races, suggested that he skip the Presidential line entirely (he thought that would be abdicating his duty), and threw in the overturning of our democracy for kicks and giggles.

I failed. 

Just Stop It

I am so tired of the Democrats eating their young.

Joe Biden is no older today than he was last year at this time, if you look at it from a percentage-of-life-lived perspective.  If people were outraged and fearful then, they certainly kept their mouths shut, even thought President Biden was abysmally behind in the polls.

Now, when the polling numbers are moving in Biden's direction, instead of rallying around their leader, the Democrats are looking to score points, to move up in the pecking order, to lust without seeming to yearn.

The President raised unprecedented amounts of money in the days after the debate, some of it from TBG and me.  I was sending a message that the situation is okay with me, given the alternative.

Would I rather have had this conversation 18 months ago?  Sure, but nobody asked me.

I'd have liked President Biden to choose to go out the door with the economy on an upswing and the Bi-Partisan Infrastructure Bill (which deserves to be capitalized just that way) creating roads and bridges and bike lanes and public transportation which might just be named after him.

I'd have liked Gretchen Whitmer and Secretary Pete and Cory Booker and Josh Pritzker and Josh Shapiro and Gavin Newsom and Kamala Harris and anybody else who wanted to throw a hat into the ring to battle it out in public.  That's an impressive array of talent, ready to step up to the plate and deal with whatever the Republicans choose to dish out in 2028.  

For now, they and everyone else hoping to avoid the apocalypse should pull together and remind America what putting the Democrats in charge will do.  Remind the voters that an unrepentant sex offender with a history of not paying his bills is not someone they'd hire to manage a McDonalds, let alone the United States of America.  

Let's stop making the Republicans' points for them.  It's free advertising of the very worst kind, and the media is feeding the beast.  

I'm looking to France, where the polls were trending right and the voters trended decidedly left.  Americans of all genders and descriptions are quite aware that their rights have been trampled upon, and that what remains will be ground up and spit out unless they and those who love them hie to the voting booths in November.

Trying to take action is better than wallowing in despair..... for today, at least. 

Mandate for Leadership

2025 - The Conservative Promise.  That's the official title of the publication everyone is talking about, and which I've read so that you don't have to.  You can thank me later.  

Reading the Mueller Report was riveting, a binge-worthy true story of fantastically evil characters, horrifying, and anything but boring.  This thing is a screed written by those evil characters and is equally horrifying.  It was boring, repetitious, and lie filled.  Its terrifying specificity repelled me.  I wanted to stop, and, eventually, I did. 

We really must win this election.

The lies (well, a few of them... you'll see where this goes pretty easily)

The Federal Bureau of Investigation, knowing that claims of collusion with Russia were false, collaborated with Democratic operatives to inject the story into the 2016 election through strategic media leaks, falsified Foreign Intelligence Surveillance Act (FISA) warrant applications, and lied to Congress.

I'll spare you the 5 Hunter Biden laptop/salacious/Burisma/FBI coverup references; I'm sure you can fill in the pieces yourself. 

 The terrifying stuff

The great challenge confronting a conservative President is the existential need for aggressive use of the vast powers of the executive branch to return power— including power currently held by the executive branch—to the American people.  (Is this gobbledygook... folding onto itself and going nowhere?)

Or this one; just substitute any other Department's name and you'll find the same thing.  They each have their own chapter.

At a practical level, not reforming the Department of Justice will also guarantee the failure of that conservative Administration’s agenda in countless other ways. Successful reform will require more than minor peripheral adjustments.  

After that, there are pages and pages about the need to rescind damaging guidance on this that and the other, especially those pesky rules about diversity, education, and inclusion. 

Intelligence and national security will have to be delved into later.  This part has me scared enough.

In organizing (by means of Presidential Directive31) an NSC staff that is more responsive and aligned with the President’s goals and empowered to implement them, the NSA should immediately evaluate and eliminate directorates that are not aligned with the President’s agenda and replace them with new directorates as appropriate that can drive implementation of the President’s signature national security priorities

The Kinder, Küche, Kirche theme runs through it all.  The Comstock Act gets half a page or more, live birth abortions have their place, as does birth control in general.  Here's just a sample.

Marriage, healthy family formation, and delaying sex to prevent pregnancy are virtually ignored in terms of priorities (in grants designed to reduce poverty in teens), yet these goals can reverse the cycle of poverty in meaningful ways. CMS should require explicit measurement of these goals.

Anyone else wondering how they're going to obtain explicit measurement of delayed sex among teens.

There's more.  This is enough for now.

It's not about individuals at this point.  Anyone who thinks the Republicans have nominated a worthy candidate, anyone who thinks the Democrats' guy is old --- there's no reasoning there.  Those facts have been there forever, and the Democrats who are eating their young by going after Joe at this late date are deserving of their own special place in Dante's ninth circle of hell... that reserved for treachery.

What we're voting on is a direction for America.  Whether it is Joe Biden or Kamala Harris or Gavin Newsom, reproductive rights will be safe.  If it's the Lying Liar and any of his minions, women had better watch out. 

Issues not personalities.  What kind of country do we want to be.  I'm going to try that on for a while.

(Un)Happy Fourth of July

I have an annual post that usually goes here on Independence Day. 

I'm not feeling very celebratory this year.  

Apparently, we have an all powerful President with few limits on his powers.  That's why the Declaration of Independence listed all the things that the King did to force his subjects to dissent.

We have no way to make that bold a statement right now..... we have to wait until November and hope that the rest of the voting public sees the danger the same way we do.

November is a long way off.  A convicted felon is a major party candidate.  The Supreme Court is corrupted by partisan politics and unethical conduct.  My blood pressure is 157 over 92.

This is not good.  

I'm making a commitment to register every citizen I encounter; I'm going to get the forms and carry them around in my purse. I'm going to write Get Out The Vote postcards for every campaign I can.  I'll send dollars when I'm able.  

I'm just not going to watch the news.  I'm going to pore over the Project 2025 manuscript and commit its outrages to memory, having them handy when a conversation warrants pulling them out.

Can you think of something else (besides phone banking - I don't answer spam - and door knocking -too scary)?  I'm all ears.

This must be stopped.  I like America, our republic, if we can keep it.  Where are Ben Franklin and George Washington when we need them? 

 

Happy 4th of July

This is reworked, revised, revisited...yes, you've read parts of this before.  I'll have the 2024 version of this for your reading pleasure tomorrow.  It's not quite as joyous.

The sky is pure blue,  painted that way as G'ma said every time she looked up.  The occasional fluffy white cloud drifts by, and I'm hearing G'ma remark on that, too.  The flag in front of the house is swaying, the pole wedged between the base and the capital of one of the front columns, secured with thin, silver, crafting wire.  

It's an elegant solution to TBG's reluctance to put holes in his house;  I feel like Daddooooo every time I wrap another ring around the post.

Daddooooo was big on ingenious remedies to intractable problems.  He was also big on flags and the 4th of July.  We always went to the beach.  We always stopped at Custom Bakers on the way home, where the owners always let us go back and stick our fingers in the vats of frosting.

We always went to the Boardwalk in Long Beach, arriving as the sun was setting.  Skeeball and mechanical fortune tellers and the smell of the ocean, too black to be seen but too noisy to go unnoticed, occupied us as we waited for night to fall.  We practiced our ooohs and aahhhs; we were in fine form by the time the booms and the bangs began.

Through it all, the flags were flying.

There was a big one in the bracket beside the garage door, until the house was painted and further holes were frowned upon (is this some kind of male thing I just don't get?). A pole-holding-tube was sunk into the flower box, and while it was neither sturdy nor attractive, it did the job and as far as Daddooooo was concerned that was that.

There was always a plastic flag attached to the car's antenna, and all our bicycles had flags on the handlebars.   

I'm not letting the tradition fade away. 

Wearing my red white and blue tie dye - the dress, the tank top, the even bigger tank top - as I go through my day, bringing red and blue berries with whipped cream to the new next door neighbors who've invited us for late afternoon snacks, I'll be remembering what we always did.   

Happy 4th of July, denizens!  Let us live to continue to protect and create a more perfect union.

A Medical Desert

I've heard of a food desert, and donated dollars and fresh fruit and veggies when I've been asked to help.  I think of myself as relatively blessed when it comes to having what I need when I need it.  The essentials are ready at hand, or available at the end of a telephone line or a short ride in the car.  We turned our backs on buying a beautiful home half way up Mt Tam in Marin because what if we forgot that we needed milk and we had to drive all the way down the twisty road i the dark.

We chose Tucson for many reasons.  Among those reasons was the obvious proliferation of the various arms of the medical profession.  Every main artery had clusters of doctors in little attached houses, side by side for miles at a time.  We figured this was a prime space for doctors to practice; the population skews older and God knows old people need doctors.  

While it is still true that old people need doctors, there don't seem to be very many of them willing to take on new patients.  My fabulous GP is moving to Scottsdale for an offer she couldn't refuse (I have three kids and this is a lot more money) and her practice has been unsuccessful in locating her successor.

There are just no docs out there was her reply when I asked who I'd be seeing next year.  She could still care for me via telehealth and a yearly trip up to Scottsdale, but we agreed that that plan is less than ideal. The practice is working on strategies to cover her patients, but she agreed that it would be a good idea to start searching on my own.

I asked about a new company that's offering services specifically for the elderly.  She shook her head and said she'd not heard anything good about them.  

Most of my friends are in the same boat; I was the one with the good care that made them jealous.  Now, I'm adrift.  

Concierge medicine would make sense if we had serious, ongoing needs.  But we don't.  We need shots and COVID care when the situation warrants it, but otherwise we spend most of our year doctor-free.  

Now we are really doctor free.  It's an uncomfortable position.  Dr K and Not-Kathy like their new guy, but I really want a woman.  No one else has a referral.  I'm kind of angry at the practice for not planning ahead for this misadventure, but if there are really no docs out there what can they do?

And, more important, what are we going to do?

A Kingdom

He can do anything he wants, as long as the justices he installs says he can.

It's too bad Joe Biden is an honorable man. Right now, he could order the assassination of the Lying Liar for fomenting an insurrection,  pardon the killers, and no one could say him nay.

I dissent.

I had my annual check up today.  My blood pressure was 160 over 80, 150 over 80 after an enjoyable conversation with my doctor. Was I exercising?  Was I overindulging in evil foods?  No,  I caught 10 minutes of Nicolle Wallace before I drove over to her office and yes, I could feel my blood pressure going up.

Her advice?  Don't watch the news before a blood pressure check...... and keep track of the numbers for the next few days to help her help me feel better.  

So, for my mental health, I am not going to think about this any more.

The End (for a while, at least)

It's despair that I'm feeling.  It's not a place I like to go.  I've reverted to November, 2019, right after the election, when I could not listen to the news.  I've asked TBG to change the channel, and until he finds something else to watch my innards are in turmoil.  

I cannot do this to myself.

If all this does is confirm that Joe is an old man then I'd say no harm, no foul.  And then I would add this:

When your wife is in the hospital, dying of sepsis, after being denied basic medical care, you're not going to care that Joe Biden is old.

Anyone who believes that a convicted felon should be president cannot be influenced.  The rest of us should focus on policy and implementation and those pesky down ballot races. That's where I'm going to start with Mr. 21.  

It's time to start studying Project 2025 and scaring the shit out of those young non-voters who have absolutely no idea what is in store for them.  

And I can do all that without watching or reading the news.... saving my sanity and democracy one day at a time..  

Oh, Dear

Joe can't seem to get it together.  He looks and sounds like he'd rather be asleep.

Trump is looking alert and somehow is making coherent sentences come out of his mouth.  

I want to reach out and close Joe's lips together.  He may think it looks surprised.  It comes across as vapid.

The Lying Liar is at his usual tricks, but he's doing it with energy.  Joe's got some points somewhere among the word salad he's struggling over.  

It's breaking my heart.  

I watched so you didn't have to.  TBG wanted to change the channel after five minutes.  For you, we watched the whole thing.

The talking heads are reporting panic in the upper ranks of the Democratic political machine.  Their potential nominee looked vulnerable tonight.  

I fear for our democracy.

What Do You Do With Them

The USPS delivers nothing but advertisements and requests for donations.  I recycle the former and open the latter, only because there are usually prizes inside.

Sometimes there's a nickel or a dime.  Sometimes there is a forever stamp.  I know what to do with those.

Sometimes there's a dream catcher or a reusable shopping bag or a lighted magnifying glass.  Those I put in my GRIN box to be given away to the Prince scholars. 

Often, there are memo pads, which I find quite wonderful. Unlike my son, I rely on paper and pencil for quick notes.  Grabbing my phone to make a list never crosses my mind.

Then there are the address labels.  Today's, from St. Jude, are decorate with olive green leaves and branches. They follow the previous red white and blue patriotic themed labels that came last week.  Yesterday brought animals and waterfalls from the Sierra Club.  Sloane Kettering sends me plain labels emblazoned with a large capital letter enhancing my last name.

I have pastel tea cups and coffee pots from something called LLSusa and random designs from Christian Appalachian Project.  I have no ide why I received them; I just wonder what list they bought.  

Boys Town and the ASPCA have sent me labels.  They've also sent Little Cuter labels, with my address. 

I put labels on my mahjongg cards and on the tools I brought to Master Gardeners.  I cover the pre-printed return address on USPS mailing labels with pretty ones from my stash.  I write lots of snail mail for which I carefully select and stick my return address,  Hand writing it would be more elegant, but I have all these labels lying around.

I have labels in a desk drawer, labels in an envelope in the closet, labels in the kitchen junk drawer.  I have labels in The UV's glove compartment.  

What am I going to do with them all?  Will my children have to ask the same question after I'm gone?  I laughed at G'ma's stash, then got a little teary when I threw them all away.  Perhaps there's an art project lurking beneath the surface.... at least that is what I tell myself when I add yet another sheet to the ever growing pile.

Am I the only one who wrestles with this?

Spelling Bee

I walked past Walgreens' mini clinic this morning,  on my way to buy TBG some cough syrup. 

The decal attracted my attention, as all No Firearms signage does.  It made me smile.  I felt protected. 

I looked closer, and I sighed.

It feels churlish to complain.  Perhaps I can compliment them on taking care and gently bring the error to their attention. 

Because,  in all fairness,  both TBG and I took a moment,  just to be sure.