Two faced, coming in and going out ,
I've always been a little skeptical of January.
One minute we were thankful and grateful and full of love and warmth.
Today, I am filled with resolutions and reality and the need to be productive.
It's not that I wasn't productive last month.
Hardly.
I cleaned out an apartment and distributed worldly possessions.
I baked and wrapped and decorated.
I flew to the East and I welcomed guests from north and west.
Still, there is something about those two faces,
one reminding me of what is past, still hearing the closing of the door to 2013,
the other gazing blankly forward, unknowing, unable to see.
There is something of the taskmaster about January.
I feel it looking over my shoulder, wondering why I am not doing....
even as I am.
It's not the clean slate of September, the start of school.
There is a burdensome quality to the days of January.
I don't know.
Maybe it's just me.
I'm looking forward to February.
I'm looking forward to the END of January when we will join our kids at the beach for a few days of merriment. February is a favorite month of mine so will really appreciate its appearance.
ReplyDeleteI understand, and try to transform it by thinking of it as a hibernation month where we get to read, and draw, and listen to music: nourish the spirit and creativity for 2014. That is the wonderful work of January for us. Judith
ReplyDeleteWell, can I look forward while I'm drawing inward?
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