After the merge, my ad revenue checks began coming regularly, and with more data on the stub. $25 every quarter isn't much, but it makes me happy and so, by extension, I was happy with SheKnowMedia. The ad choices were more varied and the payouts (marginally) larger. Last year's BlogHer conference was splashier and more vibrant and, perhaps, a little more Hollywood. Gwyneth Paltrow's Goop website (like me? buy what I like!) wasn't that interesting to me, but Black Lives Matter and Ana DuVernay more than made up it.
But today, when I should be checking into the Marriott in L.A. for BlogHer'16, I am typing away at my desk in my own library in my own home in Tucson. I'm not all by myself. I'm still responsible for all that is usually on my plate. I won't be collecting swag and meeting old friends. I won't learn anything new nor will I hear from eloquent bloggers. Kim Kardashian and Mayim Bialik and Sara Michelle Gellar do not entice me.
I will learn about coding elsewhere. I will optimize my SEO's with help from Tucson friends. I can't replace the swag, but Amster's kids were the usual recipients and, now that they are in middle school, giant stuffed pencils hold less allure. I will be fine.
I'm just sorry that what was once the highlight of my blogging year is no longer available to me. It's like losing an old friend.