The Sun Is Out and I Am Blue - A Snippet

I can list all all the causes for my angst -

•     The lady who sneezed - maskless - over the vegetables at Albertsons yesterday afternoon.
•     Taxes are due.
•     We're traveling to Big Cuter's wedding next week - airplanes, hotels, restaurants......
•     My irrigation is refusing to water two of my vulnerable roses.
•     There's an HOA meeting next door at Fast Eddie's house and I wanna stay home and Zoom.
•     The pool filter conked out after absorbing more than its weight in detritus; we haven't swum in 3 days.
•     The trilogy about Henry the VIII I'm reading is pointing out the lapses in my knowledge of        history.    

Those are the facts.  The results are a stomach jumping around, a head that refuses to settle on one thought for more than 5 seconds, and hands that are shaking when they aren't otherwise occupied.

My blood pressure was super high at the dentist's office this morning.  

I need to begin my meditation practice.  I need to exercise every morning.  I need to eat 3 meals, regularly scheduled throughout the day.  I know all this.  I know, also, that nothing on that list is all that terrible.

And yet, here I am.  Head in my hands.  Typing though I want to weep.

I'm having a Post Covid Melt-Down.  I think I'll wallow in the sorrow for a while and come out refreshed at the end.  

At least, that's the plan.