I'm Done

I always said that we were best situated to weather this disastrophe.  

Our income is secure (thank you, TBG, for making sure of that).  We have lots of our own indoor and outdoor space to roam.  We have no place we have to be, and no one who depends on us to be there.  We receive all the channels in the land (except as Xfinity removes them, one by one, from our package). There's no snow, no hurricanes, no tornadoes or dangerous microbursts to keep us inside.   Once the library made their books available to pick up, everything seemed perfect.

We've watched the grandkids grow up, Facetiming every evening as they dine and we give Little Cuter a dose of parental love.  It's been a privilege to see the day to day changes; that's more than we would have gotten had Pandemica not intruded.

But it did.  And I am So Over It.

There, I said it. Through all my privilege (cf paragraphs two and three), I'm still morose.  I should be grateful that I'm on the list for the vaccine.  Instead, I'm furious that the process was not streamlined and smooth.  Waiting for something that will come..... eventually..... well, I'm not very good at that, as my present state of mind is demonstrating. 

For a while, I was confident that I'd be flying to Indiana for the grandkids' July birthdays; now I wonder if we will have next Halloween and Christmas and Chanukah via Zoom again.

This is worse than No End In Sight.  

I'm sure I'll be fine tomorrow.  Today, I'm going to wallow.  Thanks for listening.