I'm Still Wondering

Commenting on yesterday's post, Rain listed all the reasons I didn't like Hillary Clinton then and I don't like her now.  Like Rain, I held my nose and blackened the circle next to the Democratic Candidate for the President of the United States because the Republican candidate (rightly) terrified me. 

Hillary didn't run a great campaign.  She's never been clear of ethical issues, starting waaayy back in Arkansas.  The Ballerina grew up in Arkansas; she just shrugged when asked about the corruption. 

It was difficult to be a successful woman.  Mitch McConnell, to my ears, is shrill, but I've never heard anyone else use that term when referring to him or any other man.  The troubles she had were not all of her own making.

It's just that so many of them were, and they were always floating around in the back of my head. 

I'm still wondering if those news feed articles might have pushed me to stay home, or vote Republican, if I were not a die-hard pro-choice gun-safety voter.

The articles weren't bashing Hillary; most of them were about her defending herself against the accusations.  It wasn't the content; I rarely clicked them open.  It was their frequency, and, I imagine, the carefully nuanced headline writing that pricked the wound as I scrolled past them.

I grew up knowing that some newspapers were more reliable than others.  Uncle Abby explained the concept of Yellow Journalism to me one day, laughing over something in the N Y Daily News.  I try to be a critical consumer of news. 

I can't shake the feeling, though, that my voting behavior might have been influenced by Russian trolls, had I not been so adamantly against DJT.  After all, if they read through my posts from the run-up to the 2008 Clinton v Obama convention, they'd have a pretty good idea of just where I stand